Flotsam

I just couldn't bring myself to work on anything today. Yesterday was a forced day off so I did a lot of reading, possibly too much. Today my overheated brain wanted nothing to do with anything and, considering how pleasant it was, I decided to go out for a while. First I took a nice trip to Japantown, mainly to look at the lovely women. Then I ended up in Amoeba and came home with four CD's. I think I may have managed to pick up a brush for all of fifteen minutes.
Drunk old man on the bus today, demanding to be put in jail so he could sleep. He was funny.
Very bright and comfortable.

The GIRLS

Dr. Loo gagging on catnip and Bumba looking disgusted.

Slow Down

Don't know what happened today; I started, and finished, a painting of Rembrandt. I was done in about one hour. Finished UG Krishanmurti, started a "forest", and started another "Magicians Accomplice". Something must have happened this weekend. I love days like this.
Last night:The Tower, Four of Staves, King of Swords.

Persimmon

Spent the day working on "The Fal of Rome" after several weeks of leaving it alone. Also posted more pics to DA. Not too much else today. Kind of a hermit.
Woke up from a vivid dream about my old friend Cynthia. I miss her. No idea where she's at today. It's been close to ten years since I spoke to her last. In my dream I told her that I really had nothing to say, just want to take in her presence. She always was one of my best friends.

Voice Therapy

Don't know what's going on but I'm having a general anxiety. I'm making friends, both here and on-line; Deviantart is a wonderful place, I'm becoming acquainted with folks that like my humble creations, and it's intimidating the hell out of me. Spending too much time as a hermit, staying in an emotionally neutral area...now I'm being forced to come out of my shell and really discover what kind of person I am. I know some people really get turned off by me because I can be a little too forward or straight, makes people think I'm a snob or a know it all. I'm at the point where I don't like sharing accomplishments or personal triumphs with people. What kind of jacked-up planet do we live on where we're supposed to constantly be down on ourselves, not take pride in what we've done, etc. I understand not being an ego maniac; no one should lord over anyone else. But do we need to always be negative? Maybe it's just me...
Anyway, coming out of my shell is scary. Since Wendy and I split I've lost a lot of friends. Don't know why. Even people that stepped into the picture long after her would get all pissed at me for who knows what.
But I'm excited to finally have some friends that are interested in talking to me. It's nice...just scary.
I think it's also my problem with self-destruction; "no one could really like me" and all that bullshit. Where the hell does that come from? Do "primitive" tribes have self-esteem issues?

Rapididity

Finished "The Magicians Accomplice" today. Went by quick.

8-12-07

Gorgeous sunny day, spent part of it scooting around. Last night had a great time out with Bobbi, Erin, Vanessa, and Emma; went to Pizza Orgasmica, had a great Porter that they brewed. Too hot inside though.
I'm rapidly going through the book "Condensed Chaos" by Phil Hine.
Not much, overall it has been a much needed relaxing day.

Denizen

I stepped out the door, and in a flash of inspiration came the painting I'm calling "The Magicians Accomplice". Having fun with it so far. It's kind of paying homage to the tachists that I love. It's good to have those folks there to balance the realist crowd.

a couple of weeks ago

Leather Daddy

FLIM!!!

It's about time that the films of Dusan Makavejev and Alejandro Jodorowsky were re-mastered and put on DVD. Those guys are incredible and to think that their movies were only available on bootleg is a crime. But now they're out. And I'm happy. But what about films such as "The Devil's Fetus" or "Seeding of a Ghost"? Because they're horror/splatter films from Hong Kong does that mean they're insignificant? Why aren't films of that sort mentioned in the same breath as Godard? Why is he hip? I love his films too but come on. "Alphaville" really is Ed Wood quality. Am i the only one who notices, or is everyone so mesmerized by French and philosophy that they think it's so much better? Don't get me wrong, I'm only picking on Godard because he's so hip...Alphaville is one of my favorite movies. But so is "Plan 9 From Outer Space". You know why Ed Wood is great? Because despite a lack of budget, actors, time, and POSSIBLY talent he still managed to make his films. And you know what? They're fun!
Anyway, don't know why I went on a tirade. I'm so glad that Jodorowsky and Makaejev have their movies out. Just thought I'd write about it.

One year

I just realized that I've lived in San Francisco for one year now. What have I learned? That people are all the same. Is that a major revelation? It feels like it to me.