7:59 AM
I'm up early. Starting my coffee. It looks like it'll be grey, but it's not cold, at least in here.

8:37 AM
Jusy heard on the radio that there is a cemetery in California that has been invaded by turkeys!!! Okay, it IS the apocalypse!!! Oh yeah, and it's my favorite hoiday today:Halloween. Not that I do anything, I just like the day, enjoy watching kids go trick-or-treat. Speaking of which, I might go out tonight with some of the MA kids. That could be fun. They're allowed to workout in their costumes tonight.

10:11 AM
Getting ready to head out to SFMOMA. I'm feeling very nervous, something about this week. Things can go in several directions, things that I have no desire to discuss at the moment. But I am very shaky. It could also be the fact that I'm having a new Trader Joe's coffee called "Double Dark". But, who knows...

9:29 PM
I had an amazing day, but I'm too tired to write. Write about it tomorrow.

9:12 AM
It's cold and grey.
I had one hell of a time crawling out of my cozy bed.

11:00 AM
Good lord, it's tough to get motivated to do anything.

11:19 AM
Something is wrong. It feels like I'm getting sad, but I have no idea why.

5:32 PM
I just finished watching "Uncle Goddamn" and I can't remember the last time I laughed so hard. Tears were pouring out of my eyes. But I feel partially sad that I laughed so much. I have trouble believing that I'm of the same species as these people. It has made me want to be a better person.

8:10 PM
We just had a very big earthquake. It seemed to go on forever.

10:56 PM
Poor California, between the fires and earthquakes...maybe it is the apocalypse!
SFMOMA tomorrow....

8:54 AM
It's a grey morning, supposed to rain.
There are construction workers on the roof next door.
Will I end up doing laundry today?

9:11 AM
Aahhh, I just love that first shot of morning caffeine! I'm feeling so much better.
So, here I am, a 32 year old man, and I'm getting another huge zit, on the side of my nose, by my eye. It gets very annoying to get such large ones everytime I get a bit of stress.

10:57 AM
So where in the hell are the left over RML sampler cd's? I'm supposed to send some off. Digging through my closet is going to be a joke. Oh the humanity!

11:42 AM
Started, very unexpectedly, a new painting that is demanding to be called "An Emotional Fossil". I suspect that it's about my recent return to optimism, feeling in control, etc. A lot of my negativity seems to be dead and buried, but it is a reminder that it is always there, even if in fossil form. I don't want to be so naive and think that I'll never go through a depression again, because I know I will. But I have been feeling very good lately. Besides, I believe that negativity and depression are necessary transitional periods. It's a shallow belief to think that we should always be happy. But wallowing in misery isn't good either...it's just a change.

1:09 PM
And just like that, "An Emotional Fossil" has gone in a different direction, one completely unexpected or hinted at in the beginning. It always amazes me how my paintings have a life all of their own, but I do encourage that. Much like someone like Rauschenberg I prefer to be a medium instead of some super-genius, controlling artist. Not that all artists who prefer control are jerks, or even geniuses, whatever a genius is. I don't think that I really believe in the genius cult.
On a lighter note, I can't stop listening to "Our Lips are Sealed" by The Go-Go's! Ahem.....My hardcore, avant-garde buddies would be so ashamed of me!

3:16 PM
Working on "The Magician", the second of the "Major Arcana" series.
Writing e-mails.....

4:36 PM
DA is not letting me upload any art. I have no idea why. I don't think it's being done on purpose, something just isn't functioning. So I can't put the cover of "My Brain" on-line. Blah.
I am having a very good day. I'm anticipating a unique week.

6:19 PM
All this week will be "The Simpsons- Treehouse of Horror"! Yay for Halloween shows. Those are always the best.

10:58 PM
Made a pasta dinner, with vodka sauce. Unfortunately I wasn't too crazy about it...the sauce was too runny, at least to me.
Went and, finally, did some laundry, but I got all embarassed while I was in there; the moment I step in the door there are two cute college girls, and one is painting her toenails. That does it for me, I think watching that is completely sexy. But I really was embarassed, so much so that I didn't want to walk by them for fear of getting caught staring at her feet.Oh, the drama of an unrepentant foot-fetishist!!!!

8:23 AM
Or is it 7:23 AM?????
The computer says 8:23, the living room clock, which automatically sets itself, says 7:23. I didn't realize that we had to re-set our clocks.

11:00 AM
So, today is not clock re-setting day, the living room timepiece was just programmed to change on this date automatically. Got it....mystery solved.
Re-arranged a tiny bit. Put an old plant in the window, which required me to move the entire shelf that it sits on. Got a CD rack out of the window and put it in the plants old home. I've been wanting to move the CDs for some time. So now I'm happy.
Kitty toilet cleaning today. The excitement never ends with me.

1:47 PM
Trying to psych myself up to go to the Serj(?) show, which I really don't want to. Why don't people ask before they get me a ticket?

5:15 PM
It looks like burritos from Gordo's tonight, my favorite. Yum.

9:17 PM
The Red Sox won the World Series. I'm not a huge baseball fan but the last inning was pretty exciting.
On a more sombre note it appears that the worlds bee population is disappearing. What could this be symbolic of? Maybe it is the apocalypse. I'll more than likely have more to say about this in the future, not that my humble opinions would be true, or any sort of answer, it's just a symptom of how my brain functions.
No concert tonight! Thank goodness. I'm hoping to see John Zorn do "Moonchild" next weekend. That is a show I have no desire to miss.

8:17 AM
Odd sky. Grey and orange.
Getting ready to go teach, but I'm not supposed to today. My group has to be off site for the day, but there is too much legal stuff with that, too much liability, so I'm not supposed to do anything with them. SO it looks like I might have to go out there and send everyone home. My group has been missing too much. I think that I need to go independent, rather than be hired by such a weird group as YMCA.

It's possible that I'll be heading to SFMOMA with Bea Kwan, someone I know on-line. We've never met in person.

5:24 PM
Well, my group all met at Betty's and we didn't work out. Instead the kids ran around, I blew bubbles with some of them, then a few of us went out to lunch. Betty gave me some very nice plants, something that she has been planning on doing for some time.

7:50 PM
I'm making the concious decision to never be an expert on anything. So many experts continually arguing as to who is the "most expert" seems like a very silly passtime.

8:21 AM
Grey morning. Will it stay this way? Just heard on the radio that it will be clearing up.
I slept good but I'm groggy.

10:55 AM
Spent the morning reading the Disinfo book, the book of interviews. As always the subject matter is wonderful.
Right now Dr. Loo appears to be upset with me because I won't let her drink the shower water. I cleaned it up a bit in there so I don't want her drinking that.
Dr. Loo yesterday, scowling at me....

I'm sorry little girl, for whatever I did.

It smells like fall. I love it.

6:59 PM
Had lunch in Japantown. Waiting to see if there is anything going on tonight.
I'm becoming very fascinated with Paul Laffoley. His mental process is something else.

12:29 AM Saturday
Watched "Seytan" and "Mystics in Bali". Fantastic films!
Goodnight.

8:50 AM
It's a grey morning.

10:34 AM
Reading and writing e-mails all morning. I haven't even cleaned up yet. It's nice to have folks around that I can communicate with.

12:31 PM
Lunch at the sushi boat. The cute Japanese waitress said "Special calendar, just for you" and gave me one. So I feel special.

3:08 PM
This happy guy lives in my window....no idea where the tenant is.






5:35 PM
Spent some time at the bookstore, bought some canvases. Not too exciting. Put some new stuff on-line.
The sun has come out but it's cold.

8:22 PM
Just got in from a dinner of Vietnamese soup. Nice and full. Off to the gym?

10:45 PM
This was written to me on DA in regards to RML.....

"OMG!! thats so exciting! my gosh youre gonna go far baby! and very gladd of it! cause you seem like such a nice guy and modest and extremely talented... you have evrything going on for you.. just wait and see"

Thank you for the sweet words. I need as much encouragement as I can get. I'm still filled with so much doubt about getting it going. But i'll keep chugging away, slowly but surely.

9:02 AM
It's another sunny, warm morning.
The California fires are still going wild; hearing about it on the radio. I sent a text to Ashley last night, but she hasn't repilied. Hopefully she's okay and the fires haven't reached her home.

9:47 AM
Drinking an odd concoction of coffees; the remainder of my "Hawaiian Hazlenut" and the beginning of the "East African Burundi" that I got at Trader Joe's. So far it's pretty tasty. I don't know if the Burundi was a good buy or not, and I won't know until tomorrow, but judging by how much better it made the Hazlenut I would guess that it will be good. But that's just a guess.

I'm on limited time today so I think I want to get some work done. I need to get pictures of "The Stick" to put on-line. I also have to reply to an e-mail from Sherrie.
I should rephraes that; I'm on limited art time today. "Limited time" implies that there is a conflict of interest between what I want to do and what I'm being forced to do. Everything that I do today is what I want to do, I just have to be away from the easel for a few hours so I can go teach. And I love teaching.

11:01 AM
From an e-mail to Sherrie:
"The beauty of what I'm doing is that I do as much, or as little, haggling as I want to. I'm inherently too shy, too mellow, and very jealous of my freedom to get too involved in the career side of all this. So many people try to tell me that I should push my stuff harder, make more money, etc. but I don't really care to. I've never set out to be well known, let alone famous, or rich, or even liked. I like what I do, I have a few followers.....I'm quite happy.
Plus, another benefit is that I get to control my own image. No one trying to sell me as something I'm not.
I'm certainly not going to stop producing if I'm unknown. I don't need the consensus of the public to justify why I do what I do.
Don't get me wrong, more shows would be nice, but I'm not interested enough in getting out there aggressively and begging people to justify me so I can say that I've exhibited in their establishment. I'd rather organize "art barbecues" at the park...things like that sound far more rewarding and real."

12:09 PM
Okay, for some reason iPhoto is acting wacky so I'm unable to get new pics on-line. So now what?

1:10 PM
Finished reading "No Way Out-Conversations with U.G. Krishnamurti". It is very excellent. I like to consider him the "evil" Krishnamurti, even though, of course, he wasn't, just a very cynical, funny man. In the last three years the philosophy of J. Krishnamurti has become important and influential on my worldview, and U.G. fits right in, albeit in a much more extreme manner.
I believe that many people have had what could be called "mystical experiences". Now, what those might be is anyones guess, whether it's brain chemicals, actual communication from something higher, a combination of the two, or who can say. For most it seems that this is a positive experience. But, if the Taoists and Physicists are right then everything has a positive and negative. I believe that U.G. had a negative mystical experience. Something happened to him and it colored his worldview. He's not the first person I've read about having that, Alberto Giacometti seems to have experienced something similar. You don't seem to hear about these as much as the more "graceful" experiences.

9:07 PM
My stomach is very full of Japanese food. Very, very full.

12:30 AM
I finished the book "The Voice Imitator". It's very interesting. Every page is a different story, one of which is only one sentence. I just realized that I need to re-start "Alphabetical Africa", a very avant-garde little book in the style of the Oulipo. But not this late at night. Now I just want to read the backs of my eyelids.
7:37 AM
I'm awake, surprisingly. My coffee is brewing. Nothing like that first cup.
SoCal is burning and i'm worried about some of my on-line friends. It sounds like it's moving closer to them.
From K-Chan's blog:
"Go to an uncovered parking lot and wipe your finger across a car. See the ash? Draw a picture! Cough and wheeze. Look up and watch the sun burn red through the clouds. Cough some more. Great times to be had in sunny So Cal!

So California is on fire, essentially. From Santa Barbara down to the border, we're burning up.

Lots of sore throats and dry coughs and nosebleeds today. And evacuations! Halo is trapped in El Segundo because he can't get back home to Lake Arrowhead (because there's a big fire there too.)

In fact, there is a big fire EVERYWHERE.

California wildfires at a glance
BY THE ASSOCIATED PRESS

Major wildfires in California:

Buckweed Fire: 27,500 acres in northeastern Los Angeles County south of Agua Dulce. Twenty percent contained. Approximately 15,000 people and 5,500 homes evacuated. Twenty-five structures and two bridges destroyed. Three people injured. Nine hundred homes without power.

Canyon Fire: 2,400 acres in coastal community of Malibu. Out of control. About 200 homes evacuated. Five homes destroyed as well as two commercial buildings, including a church. Ten homes damaged. No injuries reported.

Harris Fire: 20,000 acres about 70 miles southeast of San Diego north of the border town of Tecate. Five percent contained. Unknown number of homes destroyed. One civilian killed, 15 people injured, including four firefighters.

Witch Fire: 10,000 acres in northern San Diego County between Ramona and Santa Ysabel. Five percent contained. Unknown number of homes destroyed. No reports of injuries.

Grass Valley Fire: More than 300 acres in Grass Valley area west and northwest of Lake Arrowhead in San Bernardino Mountains. At least 113 structures destroyed and several communities evacuated.

Slide Fire: More than 300 acres in Green Valley Lake area of San Bernardino Mountains. At least 15 structures destroyed and several communities evacuated.

Santiago Fire: 15,000 acres in Orange County east of Irvine. Thirty percent contained. No homes destroyed. Four minor injuries to firefighters.

Ranch Fire: 29,000 acres near Piru in Ventura County. Ten percent contained. About 200 people evacuated. One homes destroyed and no injuries reported.

Sedgewick Fire: 710 acres near Los Olivos in Santa Barbara County. Fifty percent contained. No evacuations. No homes destroyed and no reports of injuries. "

I'll be thinking about all of you.

8:06 AM
The sun is rising higher and it looks like it is going to be another sunny, gorgeous day.

8:28 AM
Practised "Karenza", which led to some stick improvisation. Wanting to develop the habit of practicing daily, starting in the morning and then intermittently throughout the day.

11:56 AM
Just got off the phone with Ashley in SoCal, the first time I've ever spoken to her, and she's telling me that they've been ordered to evacuate. Frightening! That's not exactly the first conversation I was hoping to have with her.

4:08 PM
It's very hot here in SF!

6:01 PM
Finished "The Stick", after struggling to get motivated all day.
My allergies are bugging me. I wonder if it has to do with the fires in California?
Definitely need to hit the gym this evening.

9:11 AM
Sunny morning.
I had a very gross dream just a few hours ago. A man that I know, who reminded me of Max Ernst, but it wasn't, had the corpses of his parents kept in grape jelly. The corpses were sandwich size and already in bread, but the jelly had solidified. He decided to cut it open and get the bodies out, and eat them. So he's cutting out these nasty, rotten skeletons with rancid skin still attached. I'm watching putrid fluids get all over his hands and I'm telling him that it's not going to be a good thing for him to do that, even though I appreciate the fact that he wants too...even in my dreams I can appreciate subversive behavior! He doesn't listen to what I'm saying, puts the mini-skeletons on some bread with lettuce, mayo, and some of the remaining jelly, and takes a big bite. In my mind I'm imagining how it must taste, the crunch of the mini-skulls, etc. It isn't long before he spits it out and runs to the bathroom to puke. My stomach is still churning from that dream.
10:45 AM
Taking pictures of more paintings to put on-line and I notice something catch Bumba's eye in the window. Turns out to be a big bug, I think a "stink bug". Since I've no idea what those things do I tried to shoo it out the window, fearing that it could bite the cats. It didn't co-opoerate, went behind the couch, and I may have killed it while it was back there. I don't like to do that but I also want to protect the cats.
12:40 PM
Started on a new painting inspired by the film "The Stick". I've long benn enamoured by Africa and I've done several paintings inspired by it. This is a continuation of that interest.
An old friend has permitted me to view her blog.
3:21 PM
The outline of the "ghosts" on my new painting is ready. After covering the canvas is several different techniques I've found the general shape of the main focus. This is a bit of an odd one for me; it's more experimental than I've been in some time. I even went so far as to apply paint with dental floss.
6:10 PM
"Kittieflowers" has reached its destination, safe and sound. Now it has a new home with a great keeper.
The final of my orders has arrived here. "Malpertuis" tonight?
It is time to clean up and think about starting dinner.

10:39 PM
Way out of balance with the blood-sugar this evening. Too low then too high, so I'm not feeling all that great at the moment. Spent the day running around downtown, mainly in the Mission district. It was sunny and warm. Got a hair cut today. It's short.

5:39 PM
It's a lovely day. Pub tonight?
7:07 PM
Yes, pub tonight.

9:39 AM
Groggy this morning. I woke up at approximately 4:39 AM with my blood sugar dropping fast, so I had to get up and eat. So I don't feel too hot at the moment. It's overcast.
Last night I watched an incredible movie called "The Stick", a war/horror hybrid from South Africa. It was very creepy and packed with emotion. It's worth watching again. I really enjoy war movies but I tend not to buy them. I think I'm still under the spell of certain former moralising friends who think anything that smacks of "manhood" is bad. This is an attitude that I must crawl out from under. I don't believe that war or violence is good. But I don't think a world where everyone is blissed out and at peace is possible, or even desirable. I think the most vile kind of conflict comes from morals, politics, we're right and they're wrong attitudes. That is why I don't get involved in such things. But I'm not so naive to believe that anyone else has that attitude.
To get back to what I was saying, there is nothing wrong with "maleness", as long as it's not used as a tool to keep others down. The same can be said of any belief that one clings to and tries to mold the rest of the world by. It's a cliche, but a hammer can be used to create a house, or break a skull. Does that mean all hammers should be illegal, taken out of our hands, etc., "just in case""? Oddly, there are some people that would say yes.
Listening to Debussy piano works.
11:40 AM
What the hell is wrong with Hotmail? I can't delete, I can't send.....making me mad! Maybe I'll need to switch to the Gmail account. Would Hotmail even care?
I have to sit around and wait for the organic vegetable delivery. If no one picks it up they call either me or E. freaking out. Just leave the box!
Bumba decided that it was time to throw up, but at least she hopped off the couch. She's such a good kitty.
12:29 PM
Re-arranging bookshelves-an exercise in futility!
6:13
The books are still not re-arranged! Okay, I haven't been working on them the entire day but it looks like it'll never end! Currently listening to "In Every Dream Home a Heartache".
10:48 PM
Done. Had to move another case into the hallway,but, oh well. It works.
Finally watched "Hardcore" after waiting for ten years. I liked it; the eye watering '70s fashions, the sleaze, etc. Good times.
I teach in the morning.

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A note from England

Here is something that a new friend wrote to me today. I quite like it and don't want to forget his kindness, not to mention deep philosophical knowledge.....



I am glad I met you too, Jimmy. You're a great guy, and you're knowledgeable on a lot of subjects. Not only that, but you have a certain charm that sort of shines through what you write, and, in particular, through your artworks -- which I interpret as being your own interpretation of the world [for I have great difficulties in believing that one ever painted a picture outside of what his interpretations of it were]. It is my belief that someone whose logic is distorted lives in an exceedingly interesting universe. Art is, I think, the distortion of logic; or, perhaps better, an interpretation of logic; for as I said, art is for me an interpretation of the world. Hegel said that logic is the same thing as metaphysics; metaphysics deals with the big questions, like why are we here, does anything, or everything, or nothing, exist, that sort o'thing. [link] is a link to discovering more. I think that art is the same thing as metaphysics. That is my interpretation of it. Metaphysics to Hegel was best expressed in logic, and to me, metaphysics is art. I have myself arrived at THIS conclusion, after I read, and believed, the work of Schopenhauer, a tiny fraction of which said that art is the only way that we are capable of understanding the world.

So, as I was saying: yes. Your logic, or your metaphysics, or, indeed, your art, are extraordinarily interesting. You, Sir, are one of the few people, I believe, who perceive the world as it really is. One might say immediately that your images are not realistic, but to me, in the sense that they are filled with a great deal many of emotions, they are perhaps key to understanding the world. I think that you can take pride in yourself, my dear Jimmy, that you are one of a relatively rare few who are and have ever been capable of interpreting the world as a thing-in-itself. [Paradoxically, you manage to achieve this through your OWN interpretations; I am aware of this.]

If we do indeed kick it in person, I'm buying you a beer. And we can talk about art. Or bullshit. Or both. Or anything else. You, Sir, are what we in England call "a legend".

I am completely in shock at the moment; after years of searching, with no success, I have stumbled across one of my best friends from years ago, who just happened to have his collages on Deviantart, and was on a friends friend list. I recognized one of his collages from 1993!!!! I still own several of his collages from fourteen years ago. Unbelievable!

The last several days ended up being very enjoyable and very effective at recharging my batteries. Saturdy, after the classes, I went running around downtown with Betty, Ploo, and Nick and Kalvin came along for the ride. We went shopping downtown and had a blast. They are a couple of very fun girls. Unfortunately I didn't have my shot, so my blood sugar, by the time I got home, was 581, far too high.
Yesterday I picked Emma up at the airport. I managed BART all by myself with no mishaps. Yay for small miracles. Last time I went the wrong way.
Went downtown today. Someone on MUNI smelled like nasty, cheesy garlic, or at least was eating something with that combo. If those things don't smell like pee it's something else.
Thursday I met my new doctor. She is very nice but I was a little embarassed. I had to wear a silly hospital vest, which I didn't do last time, and then at one point she had me drop my pants a bit and had to feel me up. I haven't had that in a very long time. But I enjoyed the visit.
Friday night I started, and finished, a new painting that I'm calling "The Voice Imitator". It was done in twenty minutes, which is odd. I never have something in my mind come out so quickly.
It's a grey, rainy day here in the city. What do I want to do?

After days and days of hot, sunny weather the sky has clouded over and is pouring down rain. It's actually very nice. It's raining hard. Hopefully I got a couple of good pics. Using an old school camera; one with film! So I have to wait to see how they turned out.
Had a movie buying fit last night. Came home with five DVD's: "Big Trouble in Little China", "Curse of the Golden FLower", "Fearless" with Jet Li, "Mighty Joe Young", and the original "King Kong". Had a bit of the spenders guilt, but that goes away quickly. Drank a little too much wine and watched BTiLC with commentary by Kurt Russell and John Carpenter. Those are a couple of funny guys.
Prepping "Kittieflowers" for it's journey across the country.

Pull dee Strink

I just witnessed something amazing; hundreds of dragonflies just hatched in my backyard. Pics, hopefully, coming soon...

Tigerbalm

Had a dentist appointment today. Glad to say that my teeth and gums are doing much better. Even the dentist was pleased. Can't beat that.
Not much else. New e-friends, but that's about all.
Watching "Dirty Jobs".

Coelacanth

Had a great time a a B-day party for two of my students. Spent a lot of time doing sticks with Ploo. The Blue Angels were doing tricks and that was kind of cool. Had a nice day.
Last night E. and I went out to dinner for her B-day. We went to http://www.karamanduka.com . I've never had Peruvian food before but it was delicious, and it's a very cute place to eat. The Sangria was fantastic.
Friday's boat ride ended up being very nice. I spent most of the time alone drinking beer and relaxing. The bay is gorgeous.
FINALLY, art tomorrow!
Outside my window...



My Cactus...

Melody for C

Here's to show my negativity and cynicism....and lack of interest in doing things; I have the opportunity today to go on a boat ride, on an old three masted boat. And I DO NOT want to go. I have no interest in being around people, drinking, partying it up, etc. I find it all to be so boring and a waste of time.
I used to kind of like doing things...

Krishnamurti

"When you call yourself an Indian or a Muslim or a Christian or a European, or anything else, you are being violent. Do you see why it is violent? Because you are separating yourself from the rest of mankind. When you separate yourself by belief, by nationality, by tradition, it breeds violence. So a man who is seeking to understand violence does not belong to any country, to any religion, to any political party or partial system; he is concerned with the total understanding of mankind."

Penguin

Revelation: On days where I trap myself inside I'm completely uninspired to work. I need to go out early, do something.Yesterday I had a flash of inspiration on the bus to paint "Figures in a Landscape"...started and finished in just a couple of hours. What should I do for my mornings?

Ichthyasaurus

Frantically rushed to work this morning; it seems that i forgot to sign my timesheet. My last supervisor would have signed it for me. Oh well.
Met the yoga teacher. Her feet are incredibly sexy.
Hopped on the 9X to go have lunch with Ploo. Never been on that bus before. Now I know how to get downtown from Palega.
Gym tonight?

Kandinsky

"The artist seeks material rewards for his skill, his powers of invention and observation. His aim becomes the satisfaction of his own ambition and greed. Instead of a close collaboration among artists there is a scramble for these rewards. There are complaints about competition and overproduction. Hatred, bias, factions, jealousy, and intrigue are the consequences of this purposeless, materialist art."
1912

Auto

Saturday is finally long gone. Sifu came for my test, and after spending the day on the verge of collapse from nervousness I was happy to have it underway.Sifu and Christopher pretty much took over, which was great; took the pressure off of me. He certified me as a fourth degree. It was very nice to see him and catch up. He seemed to have a good time and my group liked him. Afterword a couple of us went to Gaspare's to have pizza and relax.
Over the course of Saturday I managed, thanks to being nervous,to grow a large zit on the left side of my face. I actually felt it coming. It's still there, under my skin, so I'm nice and swollen. 32 years old and I STILL get zits.
Started "Frozen Landscape" last week but I'm really uninspired to work on it, or anything else.